Are you willing to trust God’s judgment on your needs? 2 comments


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I taught myself to use Photoshop when I was working at WSU Libraries, somewhere between 2006 and 2010. With it, I made cool little pictures and graphics for the signs we used internally.

It was only after I left the library that I realized how expensive Photoshop actually was. I’d used it on a couple of other computers since then, but I never had access to it myself. I had used several of the cheap, free versions online, but nothing quite worked exactly the same. And it wasn’t the end of the world, but it sure would have been nice to have.

I was saying as much the other day, because having Photoshop sure would have helped out with all the graphic design I’ve been doing recently, when my dad pulled Photoshop Elements 10 out of his computer drawer. Apparently he’d gotten it for Christmas or his birthday ages back and hadn’t really used it.

And I got Photoshop, just like that. I hadn’t really even asked for it, and God had already figured out how to get it to me. But then God’s always doing that. He’s always going ahead of me and preparing things in advance, just like the Bible says in Psalm 37:18-19, “Day by day the Lord takes care of the innocent, and they will receive an inheritance that lasts forever. They will not be disgraced in hard times; even in famine they will have more than enough.

It doesn’t matter if it’s a computer program that you need or if it’s a car or a job or a meal. It’s all the same to God. If it’s something you need—really, truly need—He’ll provide it. The trouble we run into is the timing.

I think I need something right now. If you had asked me ten years ago if I needed Photoshop, I would have said: “Yes, absolutely!” And, sure, if someone had given it to me then, I wouldn’t have said no. But did I actually NEED Photoshop back then?

Not really. It would have been nice, but it wasn’t essential to the work I was doing.

God waited until I didn’t think I needed it anymore before He let me have it.

If you’d asked me six years ago if I needed it, I would have said yes, because it would have saved me a lot of trouble using web-based graphic design applications. But I was able to use the tools I had at that time to fulfill my needs. I didn’t really NEED Photoshop.

And, actually, I don’t really NEED Photoshop right now. I’ve learned to make do with what I have. I’ve learned to be content with what the Lord has already given me, but with the amount of my own design work that I’m doing, Photoshop would have been handy.

Ironic that God waited until I didn’t think I needed it anymore before He let me have it.

What we need and when we need it are two concepts that people get muddled pretty easily, and I’m thankful I decided to trust God for both of them. He knows what I need better than I do, and He certainly knows when I need it too. So my best bet is just to trust Him because He’s never late, and He’s never early.

So what do you need today? And when do you need it? Are you sure about that? Or are you willing to trust God’s judgment on the matter instead of your own?


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2 thoughts on “Are you willing to trust God’s judgment on your needs?

  • Kristin W

    This blog post slipped through the cracks when I first received notice of it. It sat among the abyss of undeleted email in my inbox for 10 days. I could have used these wise words 10 days ago, but instead I skimmed right past it: “Oh look, another post from Amy…I’ll get to it later, when I have a minute.”
    Well, that minute came this morning as I was attempting to declutter my inbox. I have to admit, it wasn’t my intention to read the email…I was in the mind frame to just blast through the list and delete what was no longer pertinent to me. The way I’ve established my inbox settings are so that I can view the first few lines on an email without opening it. I use this as a reference to decide if the email is worth my attention. It was this for this reason alone that the link to this post didn’t succumb to a hasty delete by my scrolling thumb.
    Your opening line was: “I taught myself to use Photoshop…” which caught my attention only because I have struggled for years to teach myself Photoshop to no avail. I guess I was hoping you had some tips for me in your article. Instead of an auto-delete, I clicked the link to read more.
    I admit, I was a tad disappointed that you didn’t go on to tell me your magical secret for absorbing the complexity of Photoshop without formal instruction. But what you did share was far more valuable.
    You see, 10 days ago when you wrote this article I was feeling a bit overwhelmed by my financial situation. I’ve always been cautious to be a good steward of the money the Lord has provided me. More so, I don’t hesitate to give oftentimes until it hurts, when I feel the Lord tugging on my heart to do so. Historically, the Lord has always repaid that gift in abundance – financially or otherwise. And so I have never suffered much anxiety over money: “God will provide”…and he always has.
    10 days ago when you wrote this article I had just finished filing my taxes. On top of the $2000 loan I had just taken from my father to cover the expense of my trip to San Francisco for a writers convention, I was floored to discover that instead of the $300 I owed in taxes last year, this year I owed $2,100! That was $4,100 I would have to figure out a way to squeeze out of my budget within the next couple months. I admit that I began to feel some anxiety at that point, but then soothed myself with the knowledge that God will provide, just as he always has. That was 10 days ago.
    Two days ago I sat down to take a thorough look at my finances and try to formulate a plan to pay off the $4,100. To my horror, what I discovered is that there were other upcoming expenses I forgot to factor in, like my property taxes, car insurance 6-month premium, outstanding medical bills and the medical co-pays I would owe in s few weeks when I have a necessary surgery. All of a sudden that painful-but-manageable $4,100 turned into $10,200! How could I possibly scrape together $10,200?!?!
    Until that realization I had been gladly handing off my burden to God for him to take care of. But for the last 2 days I’ve been whipped up into a tizzy of anxiety. In my heart I know that God can make a way where there seems like no way. But my mind could not wrap itself around that truth and I’ve allowed it to elevate to level of anxiety I haven’t known in a long long while.
    Then your article caught my eye. “If I can learn Photoshop I can maybe earn a little money on the side creating marketing pieces” I thought. But your article held a value greater than insight into a money-making tool. It reminded me instead that God sees my need. He understands my plight. But he doesn’t believe that I need his answer just yet. Your article reminded me that God sees the big picture. That he knows I can manipulate my finances so that I can keep my head above water for some time yet. He has no intention of letting me drown, but before he throws out a lifeline to me I have to stop flailing. I have to let go of the anxiety and once again cast my burden on Him. This is a situation beyond my control, and so I need to quit trying so hard to control it.
    Had I read your article 10 days ago it would have received a little more than a nod of agreement as I was actively trusting God to fill in the financial gap. But I didn’t feel compelled to read it then. Today I did. God knew when I needed to read your words of wisdom and he knows when I truly need the money I’ve been fretting over. Today as I read your article I felt awash in God’s peace that surpasses understanding.
    Thank you for being His voice in my ear. Thank you for being His tool for spreading his truth.
    Many blessings!
    – Kristin